Forgotten ghosts of beauty

Ημερολόγιο:
Όταν κοιτάς τον ορίζοντα, ενώ περπατάς, και κόκκινα φύλλα χορεύουν τριγύρω,πέφτοντας από τα δέντρα ... και αυτή τη στιγμή συνειδητοποιείς ότι υπάρχει τόση πολύ ομορφιά γύρω σου, και οι άνθρωποι, οι άνθρωποι έχουν ξεχάσει πώς να βλέπουν αυτή τη μαγεία, φεύγοντας από αυτό τον κόσμο σαν φαντάσματα δίχως επιθυμίες. Μπορούν να μαζέψουν τόσες πολλές αναμνήσεις όσο ζούνε, μπορούν να δημιουργήσουν μια ταινία από αυτές,αναμνήσεις από όμορφες χαραυγές,χαριτωμένα πρόσωπα, από αξέχαστες νύχτες, από ότι μπορούν να φανταστούν. 
Για μένα; Δεν μπορώ να φανταστώ κάτι πιο γλυκό από το να πίνω ζεστή σοκολάτα, στη συνέχεια,να φιλιέμαι με το αγαπημένο μου πρόσωπο, ενώ τα χείλη μου έχουν ακόμη τη γεύση της σοκολάτας, δεν μπορώ να φανταστώ κάτι καλύτερο από μια ζεστή σφιχτή αγκαλιά με το εν λόγω πρόσωπο, και ο ήλιος να αγγίζει απαλά το δέρμα μας, υπενθυμίζοντάς μου πόσο καταραμένος και ταυτόχρονα τυχερός είμαι που ζω.
Νοέμβριος, ο αγαπημένος μου μήνας του χρόνου.Ο μήνας, όπου η φύση αρχίζει να κοιμάται για να καλωσορίσει τον χειμώνα.Ο μήνας του θανάτου.Αλλά είναι μόνο το τέλος ενός κύκλου και η αρχή ενός άλλου.Και είναι όμορφο, γιατί ο θάνατος είναι ένα κομμάτι της μαγείας όπου οι άνθρωποι ξέχασαν πώς να προσέχουν και να κατανοούν, όπως ακριβώς και όλη αυτή την ομορφιά γύρω τους.
Diary:
When you stare into the horizon,while you walk,and red leaves are dancing around you,falling from the trees...and this very moment you realize that theres so much beauty around you,and people,oh people forgot how to see the magic around them,they leave from this world like ghosts with no desire.We can obtain so many memories as long as we live,we can create a film of beautiful dawns,of cute faces,of awesome nights,of everything we can imagine.
For me?I cannot imagine somethin
g sweeter than some hot chocolate,then a kiss from my favourite person of the world while my lips have still the flavor of it,i cannot imagine something better than a warm tight hug with that person, and the sun touching softly our skin in the meanwhile,reminding me how cursed yet lucky i am.
November,my favourite month of the year.The month when nature starts sleeping to welcome winter.The month of death.But death is only the end of a circle,and the beginning of another one.And it is beautiful despise what people believe,because death is one of the ghosts people forgot how to see and understand,just like all this beauty around them.


~have a nice month sweet  live to the fullest.

Masonry:The illuminated Darkness

I read alot about free masonry lately.Since im a really curious person i read every single thing on internet and i asked many people in my life.My own uncle had a mason uncle who invited him to their club,but he believes that masons are just a bussiness group.Another friend of mine who is wiccan,claims that masons are brothers in beliefs since they are also a different kind of satan worshippers.Free masonry is so famous in united states of america,and that is normal if you think that USA was built by masons,like their first president George Washington.But free masonry not only takes place in usa but in europe too with elder(mother) masonic hall(temple) bein built in United kingdom.Free masonry is said to have been started from 16th-17th century but i believe its way older,and these centuries are only when they were discovered by common "mortals".Finally masons use magic rituals and have 32-33 degrees(titles) but i also believe they are a lot more,since not even the members know about their elders,old members and the men who are behind he organisation.Their main symbolic buildings are obeliscs and pyramid.You can see those symbols in buildings around u and most of company symbols like banks etc
People have a lot of conspiracy theories according to masons and the most famous of them is the one named, "the new world order".New world order is reffered to to a new period of history evidencing a dramatic change in world political thought and the balance of power after World War I and World War II.
Many apocalyptic millenial christian eschatologists,have feared a globalist conspiracy to impose a tyrannical New World Order as the fulfillment of prophecies about the "end time" in the Bible,  asserting that people who have made a deal with the Devil to gain wealth and power have become pawns in a supernatural chess game to move humanity into accepting a utopian world government, which rests on the spiritual foundations of a syncretic-messianic world religion, that will later reveal itself to be a dystopian world empire, which imposes the imperial cult of an “Unholy Trinity” — Satan, the Antichrist and the False prophet. In many contemporary Christian conspiracy theories, the False Prophet will either be the last pope of the Catholic church (groomed and installed by an Alta Vendita or Jesuit conspiracy) or a guru from the New Age movement or even the leader of an elite fundamentalist Christian organization like the Fellowship, while the Antichrist will either be the president of the European union or the secretary-general of the United Nations or even the caliph of a pan-islamic state.
Another conspiracy sub tree theory of the new world order says that Illuminati are a sub group of masons,maybe called rose-cross(?).Finally The Protocols of the Elders of Zion  mention many things about masons playing a very serious and big role for world dominion along with jews.
Still many questions still exist according to that topic.
1)Why masons are so secretive and hidden?
2)Why while they claim to be religion free do they use magic rituals?
3)Why they have always powerful member who rule the world?
4)Is Project Blue Beam another weapon they have?
5)Is Astana their secret capital city?

Diary entry 4:Memories of the past

Memories are the most important experience in a man's life.The bigger the number you collected,the more wise you are.
This last year,it was a period collecting mine,and i feel wiser now and stronger.I cant hide you i met love,i was betrayed,i was broken and felt despair.I am not sure if i ever can have someone to love me eternally with no regrets,since i have the curse of the vampire,cursed to be alone and walk in the road of eternity with no salvation.Maybe the only sanctuary is death since love turns its back on me?Maybe patience is the best friend and i should listen?I cant know.All i know is that my heart is not cold yet,and from my experiences it has many wounds.These wounds thought will be cured with new memories and people in my life.Theres hope.I hope it wont be killed in time and i remain empty.
I hope the ice melts with the love that burns like sun.This will lead either to a happy ending or another memory of pain that will make me stronger.Who knows?All we know is that it wont kill me.Memories are my weapon,a dangerous lethal one.May we all be blessed to feel joy...

Diary entry 3:Jump into the beauty

I went for a tiny walk today.Weather was cloudy and so pretty.I love the sky in times like this.
Sea is so perfect ready to swallow ur everything into and bring u to the abyss,where all forgotten souls lay within.Wouldnt u like to just jump in?Ready to jump into the sea or the lakes and stay forgotten and invisible for ever?Sounds like a nice idea especially when u have stalkers or ppl hurting u rofl.

Diary entry 2:Ruins offer solitude

Before somedays i went to the nearby sea ruins.It seemed like the sky was crying that day.Ruins and sky offered me great solitude.Why everything is so sad...

Dance Macabre

Do you like dancing?Do you like undeath?Then this dancing school is just for you!
Urban free style kallithea!(search it in facebook).:P
Now about some news from my life...Christmas are coming and the fatman dressed in red,with them...Santa sucks hard and i hate him sooo much.Why is he fat!And ugly!And he always laughing like a rapist!OMG!Anyways...christmas has nice things too like celebration spirit,Tim burton movie marathon(nightmare before xmas),goth christmas songs,meeting with friends,starbux...So many nice times i had and ill have during Xmas.
Until then my days are still empty,only reading etc...no time now to meet with friends...And a mystery lies beyond in one of my friend's mind...what the fuck is going on,i have to ask him/her,because i start worrying and being curious...

Diary entry 1:Home sweet home

Thnx god i have 4 days of rest so i returned to my home sweet home.I went to starbucks after a loooong long fucking sweet time,and it was soooo fucking good.My soul can finally rest and i can die in peace XD.I met my friends,we went out and soon i may upload some retarded photos of us!So do not be scared!Tonight i saw the best classic movie ever, Adams family.Like a goths we are,my friend and i, love that family, which is not strange at all.My favourite character is the little girl.The wife also is awesome with such loong nails.I wanna download the episodes soon also.Anyways, goodnight and have fun.This is the last week for halloween events(via internet for me because here in greece we have no such event D:),so enjoy the massacre parties out there!

Maaany hugs(oh my gosh i am cracked again)...



Also i feel some sorrow for uknown reasons and i wonder why,i mean i am so perfect right now...It seems my sorrow mood/personality tries to take contol of me...
Sometime i must name each personality with a name so i can talk to you about them more often...Thay are such nice guys XD...